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Happy 2019, Y'all!

Posted in Me on January 1, 2019

Holy shit, would ya lookit that – it’s 2019 all of a sudden. I have to say, I’m really not a tremendous fan of this whole “perceived perception of the passage of time gaining speed exponentially” thing that’s going on as I get older.

Not. A. Fan.

But since we have an arbitrarily-meaningful calendar-flipping date on our hands, I feel like some soul-searching and priority-setting is in order. I’m not going to call anything a “resolution,” as that’s blatantly setting myself up for spectacular failure. Here’s my current plan for keeping that crash-and-burn from happening:

First off, I’m setting priorities, not making resolutions. I mean, I’m still resolving things, I suppose, but really it’s a matter of figuring out those things that are important to me and putting plans into place – and knowing that I’m going to fail sometimes and being kind to myself when it happens. Falling down on a resolution brings on more of an “AAAH NO I BROKE MAH RESOLUTION!!!” – and subsequently results in an up-giving – but knowing that I have priorities that I’m trying to conscientiously live by should (I hope) make it easier to stick to the plan(s).

Also, I’m not promising to stick with anything for a full calendar year. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not going into this year with the assumption I’m going to drop everything – but a year (even in these going-too-damn-fast times) is just way too long. Not only does committing to a year feel like a goal I have no chance of hitting given my short attention span, but… I don’t know what the heck is going to happen this year. More importantly for these purposes, I don’t know where the heck my interests are going to drift toward this year. I’m horribly flighty about chasing interests and hobbies, so promising myself I’m doing any given thing for a year is foolhardy. Instead, I’m working on committing for three months at a time – I’ll have a quarterly check-in with myself at the end of March and see how things are going and what kinds of changes I want to make for the next quarter.

The biggest thing, though, is that I’m trying to find a way to remind myself what my priorities and goals are. The single most dominant factor in my inability to stick with resolutions or, really, anything I want to do is that…I just forget. (See above, re: horribly flighty.) I will really and truly mean to make some goal or desire happen, but then my attention gets caught by some other Shiny New Thing, and the previously-very-important want fades from my head like a dream upon waking. My intentions are solid; my follow-through is crap.

I have a system I’m working on putting into place starting today. It’s tailored very specifically for myself and I’m going to see how it goes the next week or two; it’s possible that I’ll write up what I’m doing if it ends up working for me. I know that I have to have some means of keeping my priorities and goals situated at least toward the forefront of my mind or I’ve got no chance at success.

I feel like I should share with those of you who have bothered reading this far what my current priorities for Q1 2019 are (because, y’know, public accountability is good):

  1. Get my financial house in shape;
  2. Drop the fifteen-ish pounds I’ve reacquired over the last six months;
  3. Return to writing on a regular basis;
  4. Improve my Spanish comprehension and fluency.

I’d say “wish me luck,” but honestly, “wish me focus” would be a more helpful sentiment.

Allison Holt spends her days wrestling with code and her nights wrestling with her amazing wife, three fantastic children and her big goofy rescue dog. You can find her at any of the social media links below, or you can email her at herself@alli.zone.

All wrestling referred to in the previous paragraph is metaphorical.